January 2, 2008 Screencaps

Emily: Baby –

Nikolas: I'm not going to question why or how you're here anymore, okay?

Emily: Oh, okay. Maybe that's best.

Nikolas: Yeah.

Nikolas: You know, I'm constantly haunted by the wasted moments that we had together when life got in the way. Like sleeping next to you and not taking the time to reach out and touch your hair like this. Standing next to you while you're brushing your teeth and not showing you how much that makes me smile.

Emily: Hmm. You can show me now.

Nikolas: I know. I'm just afraid.

Emily: Yeah, tell me.

Nikolas: Oh, where do I start?

Emily: Anywhere.

Nikolas: I still don't believe that you're real. But then, that's not any different than how I felt about you when you were alive. The too few times I was able to push my life aside and really see you, I kept asking myself if you were really there. If this -- this beautiful and brilliant woman was truly by my side. And that makes me angry.

Emily: Well, these -- these episodes of rage -- are you still having them?

Nikolas: No. No, it seems that I've traded mad for madness. The only person I beat up anymore is myself.

Emily: Don’t. Okay? You can dwell in the past or you can live in the present, without questioning it, remember? I'm here, now.

Nikolas: What about the future?

Lulu: Nikolas, how are you?

Nikolas: Hi. I'm better.

Lulu: I just got done visiting with my dad.

Nikolas: H -- how is he?

Lulu: He's Luke.

Nikolas: Well, then he's doing okay.

Lulu: Yeah, I guess so.

Nikolas: So, are you making your rounds to all your sick relatives?

Lulu: You have a problem with that?

Nikolas chuckles.

Nikolas: No, no, just for a moment there, you sounded like Mom.

Lulu: Well, it -- with everything happening with my dad, I didn't want you to think that I forgot that you're grieving. You want to get outside of these four walls and get into some light?

Nikolas: Yeah. Yes, Luke always did describe this place as seasonally depressive.

Lulu laughs.

Nikolas: It seems to be always winter here.

Lulu: Well, it's not too cold outside. We could take Spencer for a walk. Though, we won't get very far since he stops every two feet to look at every leaf.

Emily: And rock and twig. Remember how he used to always do that with me?

Nikolas: Um -- yeah, a walk. Sure.

Nikolas: Oh, that was great. Taking that walk with you and Spencer was everything I thought I'd never experience again.

Emily: So --

Nikolas: Yeah.

Emily: You feeling better?

Nikolas: Uh -- what if I die? What if this thing kills me? Then what?

Emily: Nikolas, your love for me beat cancer. And I truly believe that. And now I'm sitting here beside you. We cheated death.

Nikolas: Oh. What's a little brain tumor, right?

Emily: Yeah. Against our love? Nothing. So, page 243?

Nikolas: Page 243.